2nd day of school

today is my 2nd day of school..
today had spot check and FORTUNATELY
i passed :DDDD

phew~~~~
but my bestie got caught cause her nail is long and she cried after that..
i comforted her and passed her tissue.
then we had an election for AJK classes blah blah blah..
and we've learned bio today..

the starting of bio,it's was nt scary as what ppl says abt it.
hope i can uderstand what teacher taught in the following classes..

and and and,i same class with him! :D
i felt so excited befpre this..but it wasn't happened as what i expected
i want him to sit near me so that we could talk and closer to each other..
but guess wad??!?!?!i sat the most front row and he sat the behind row..cool uh? -.-

actually i dunlk lk tis..i wan to him sit near me!!!! =( =(
but i wont show it out..since nobody wil care abt tis blog and i 'll spreadmy feelings out in here..
this is the only place,my OWN place..

and our koko is totally diff..x.x i think he wouldn't care la
his friends there wad,but i care..I DO CARE..
i cant say these things to him..i scared im too childish for him..angry for some useless thing..
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sis went to NS(national service)
seriously im gonna miss her..
course i've nothing to do without her lol..
i can't kacau her anymore in the coming 3 months =(

haihhhh GWX I MISS U!


May Yee 4/1/2011

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today is 23rd dec,which means today i will be knowing my PMR result..(for all the PMR candidates)
today i went to school by my mum's car,she drove to school and for me at outside the gate..
then i went to buy working books as the teachers havent go to dataran ilmu
the books including the scientific calculator costs RM80.then my friends and I went to dataran ilmu and wait for the results..
thank god..i never expect i will get 7a's for my results..and 1b la of course..
the b is for bm..grrr -.-

i SHOULD be happy today..
but im totally unhappy,infact.

i hate today.

R.I.P uncle

my uncle had passed away on 26th nov..
at 1st..he had the last stage of lung cancer..
after we knew he got cancer,we planned a lot of trips for him..
just want to do something for him..

few months ago,we went to cameron with my mother's side cousin.
this was the first time,and all of us were really happy that time..
so do my uncle,he was so excited..
he can't do anything but he keep on reminding my aunt to bring the things..
:) the cute uncle..at cameron he was so happy..
he doesn't want to sleep..he wants to feel this happiness between family..
but now..there's no more chance..
a family without him..


after that trip..we planned to go PD after SPM..
but he can't wait anymore..
the cancer cells already go to his brain..he started to stroke..and sent him to hopital..
26th of nov morning..he struggled..and died..

this is the article written by his eldest son :

我爸爸是个勇士！

我爸，

有个貌似鹰爪的鼻子，

身高与我像似，

颜面也有点类似，

可是，

性格大不同质，

他，

很好玩，

会开玩笑，

很疼我们兄弟，

也爱护妈妈妹妹，

更爱所有的事务。

爸，

我想你，

真的想你，

你不在了，

怎么办，

我很怕，

怕有一天忘了你的脸，

忘了你说话的声音，

忘记了你的手臂，

那狠狠的抓住我的手，

你的感觉，

还有一切一切，

我很辛苦，

真的很辛苦。

从前，

我以为成龙是我的英雄，

因为他很好打，

很勇敢，

可是我忽略了我的爸，

在今年里，

他奋斗了晚期肺癌，

克制了骨癌，

压运了神经线，

战胜了骨刺，

抵抗了肝癌，

还有脑中风，

但是还是输给了脑癌，

在今天早上，

就在今天凌晨，

11月26日，

0340时，

在我眼前，

挣扎死了。

我说了我很爱你，爸！

真的真的很爱你，爸！

可是那时得你神至不清，

我后悔了！

我怕没有你的时候，孤独！

我怕你不在的时候，无能！

我怕你走了的时候，害怕！

爸！

我真的很爱你！爸！

R.I.P uncle..the angels will bring u to the heaven..and god will lead you to the forever world

i was just a piece of sh*t

today planning to kumutha's house for deepavali..
but at the last minute i said that i can't go..
cause my mum asked me not to go cause all indians and
i was the only chinese girl..
she is always my respected mum..
i will follow what she said and i agreed with her..
cause when i reach there sure like one gila at there..
i can imagine they speaking tamil..and laughing with a plate of curry chicken all..

for the sk's maybe it's normal for them going to indians,malays house..
but im from sjkc..and i don't know how to speak tamil -.-
so i decided not to go..felt sorry to rathina,kumutha and nivashine..
but i think without me they can play much more happier
and don't have to worry about me being ignored..
i'm not racist..just i really don't understand their language..

and then..yea i don't know..
i felt i'm not important for my friends..including him..
i was just a piece of shit..
he can left me and play with his computer..his fifa all..
before this i can't accept and i keep on angry with him cause of this..
but now i know..he needs freedom..
so i let go him..let him play enough..
only mum..i love her..so much
she will not ignore me..she cares my feelings..
she always asked why i choose her as my mother..
for being so poor and all the craps..
if i really got the option at that time..
i still will choose you as my mum!
cause you are perfect for me..

you might don't have the prettiest face..
the best taste for clothes..
but you have the best heart..
and you got the sense of humour which can make us LOL

mum..i love u

50 cents...-.-

50 cents nt referring to the band 50 cents..
its about my handphone credit left 50 cents again..lol..
so i have to think when and how only i can reload...
i cannot let my family know..
because they will scold me and ask me not to sms so often..

compare to other couple i counted sms less edi lor.. :p
hehe..k la the other thing..
i'm glad that i've controlled my temper..
(maybe a little bit,but i'm still happy with that)
=)

its really suffer..you have to hide your real feelings and show your best smile to people..
but i realised that after you smile..everything will be okay..
and you will be relax afterward..

SMILE =)

its nt a bad thing rite :)

i realised no one notice i had updated my blog...
but its nt a bad thing..for me.. hehe
i can write wadever i wan without worries..

i read alot of articles on fb..
all the stories almost the same..
but i still lk it :p
its romantic..

tis is 1 of the articles i hv read..its nice..
the title is :

當你の女友被人污辱后，你還會愛她嗎?

hang on hang on dun judge the book by its cover (fulamak using idioms ehh :D)
but yeah its nt a ham story..its romantic...
here goes the story..

女孩有个洁白无暇的名字［雪］

男孩有个至死不俞的名字［忠］

他们是一对相濡以沫的恋人

雪爱忠胜过爱自己

忠也如此..

他们从初中相识

一次偶然的机会使他们走在一起

去班级上课时抱着书本互相手牵手

放学时忠骑单车带雪回家

一次雪开玩笑的问忠

“忠，将来找老婆找啥样的啊?”

“和雪差不多就行..”

忠也开玩笑的回答

俩人彼此默契的笑了

转眼间他们已经上高中了

雪已经成了一位亭亭玉立、超高回头率的美女

忠也变成了一个高大帅气、惹来尖叫的帅哥

他俩走在街上旁边无数双的眼睛都能杀死人

只是他们依然会意的浅笑

这天放学了

忠牵着雪回家在路上雪眨巴着水晶娃娃的眼问忠

“忠，将来找老婆找啥样的?”

“我这辈子只认准雪..取你是我一生的骄傲”

忠那坚定的眼神中透露着天长地久

俩人紧紧的抱在一起

忠吻上了她那嘟着的嘴

他们不管路人怎样的指手划脚与唏嘘

在此刻只有他俩是最幸福的

高中毕业后

他们在同一城市打工

雪凭着聪颖的头脑在一公司有了属于自己的一片天地

每天收到的情书比批阅的文件还多

但都被她一一俸还了

因为她心里只有忠

忠也不错

利用自己独有的才能在加上帅气的脸庞

在另一公司由刚出门的打工仔逐步提拔成内部精英

追他的女孩只能用数不清来形容

公司里的男同胞那嫉妒的眼睛能射出刀子

这些他都不在乎

因为他的心只为雪一人跳动

他们是同一起跑线的恋人

分别利用自己的才能有了各自的成就

促使他们加固了恋情

由原来的谈情骂悄

变成了今天的谈情说爱

但他们仍然只是恋人

男女关系仍没发生过

雪虽然从高中到现在成熟了许多

但一提此事他那晶莹的脸上总会泛起红晕

把头深埋在胸前的她

心想我的第一次永远为爱我一世的人留着

这也印证了雪名字的含意

此时雪想的爱我一世的人

其实早已在她心里刻下了深深的铭记

那个人就是～忠

忠也明白雪是懂事的女孩

因为雪的无暇

他不想过早突破这层防御底线

这是证实了忠有多么在乎她、多么的爱她

他们的默契始终那么合乎

这天雪公司的文件多了些

责任心强的她不想把这些文件等到明天批

晚上她开始加班了

忠安慰的给她发了短信

“宝贝累吗?明天批吧…”

“没事、快批完啦！你早点睡吧、呵呵…”

“那你记得多喝点热水哦！别感冒了…”

“嗯………”

忠这天也加班

他一抽时间就安慰雪

但他没让雪知道

“啊……批完了”

雪打了个哈欠

一看表十二点多了

简单收拾了一下

把公司的门锁住就走

出了公司大门在街上叫了辆出租车

走到离家一半距离时

前方施工修路把路给封了

走小路吧..

出租车看路不好走停下了

雪只好步行走

前方是如此的幽静

雪有点怕

她掏出手机想给忠打电话让忠来接她

但一想都半夜了

掏出来的手机又放进包里

雪独自走在小路上

高跟鞋的声音是那么醒目悦耳

突然一只大手捂住了她的嘴巴

那个人猛兽般将雪拖进路边沼泽地

雪彻底没能力挣脱

她的第一次竟让一个陌生人强迫去了………

她的泪水与沼泽混在一起

哭声是那么凄凉、悲惨

整个夜空也显的那么那么暗……

雪配不上忠了

她给忠的承诺一辈子也兑现不了了

雪不在是以前的雪……

她无法在面对忠

只能选择逃避…

第二天早上忠给她打电话

看他昨天加班今天起床了没

关机…

忠以为可能她太累了

因为他们以前彼此为对方24小时开机的

中午

忠又连续打了三次仍是关机

他按捺不住自己了

去了雪的公司

公司里的人也说

“今天不知雪怎么了?以前就算她不来上班也回给经理打电话的”

忠快要崩溃了…

雪在车来车往的路上走

她也不知道她将要去哪

只是这样漫无边际的走…

雪的手机开机了

熟悉的铃声又响起了

是忠打来的

她犹豫了一会

但还是摁了挂机键…

她无力的坐在地上

低这的头在不停的颤抖

那霜粉的脸被忍不住的泪水划得没了色彩

把泪哭干的眼里又挤出几滴泪

顺这被她咬破的嘴唇流下来

血和泪混在一起……

忠已经快疯了

但他还平静的给雪发了信息

“宝贝怎么了?为什么不接电话?”

雪颤抖的手快拿不住手机了

她不知道该怎么回答……

“宝贝怎么不回信?忠想你了”

“宝贝你在哪?忠去接你”…………

一连发了好几条信息的忠在也忍不住了

他的神经即将分裂

对着空中大喊“这是为什么?!雪到底在哪……”

滴滴滴…

忠的手机响了雪来的信息

“亲爱的忠对不起

认识你我很满足了

这么多年来谢谢你的照顾

我多想和你永远牵手走一辈子

多想和你一起共度此生

多想把你继续爱下去

但我做不到了.....

你心中的雪已不存在

她不在那么清纯

她不在洁白无暇

忠，请你忘了我吧！

我给你的承诺永远给不了你

我的第一次在那天晚上被人强……”

忠彻底明白了

他哭了…

手指在手机上疯狂的跳动

“宝贝你到底在哪?

忠真的快崩溃了

忠会永远爱你

宝贝你真的好傻

咱们的誓言呢?

不是说好相守到老吗?

忠不在乎那晚发生了什么

忠只要雪记得忠会爱雪一生

宝贝，请把你的第二次给我

忠会等一世的……”

雪接到这个信息后笑了

笑的是那么甜

他隔着笑着的泪水在街中看见了一个慌张的身影

是那么的熟悉、朦胧

“忠…”雪大声叫

当忠回眸的那一刻

雪已经向忠狂奔

“雪…”忠也大喊一声

他也狂奔向雪

她们紧紧的抱住了…

忠看着雪那血红的眼那么可爱

当雪想说什么时

她那被咬破染红的嘴唇

已被忠深深吻住……

街上的行人仿佛明白了他们的故事

街上没有一声唏嘘

他们这一刻同样是最幸福的……

看了文章的人

你明白了嗎?

真正の愛不僅僅是爲了那第一次..

the end..
nice isn't it..

tats wad true love means..hehe
n i guess..im having 1 nw..hahahaha
i hope YOU can have one too!

haha byes =)
May-E

Outdated =x

fuhhh blogger can create ur own template oso..
im seriously outdated :l
oh ya PMR is over....... :D

and nw is the time to enjoy! wooots ;)
but its boring actually..lols
planning to go out wid frens..
but most of thm cant go out,
tats y i hv time to update my blog

uhmmmm

Happy Deepavali to those who are celebrating :D

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:D ok byes